The next hurdle
In less than two weeks, I'm going in for a CVS procedure. Much to my surprise and relief, CVS can be done as early as ten weeks' gestation, with results 10-12 days after that. So before the pregnancy is obvious to strangers, I would know about any major chromosomal abnormalities and have the option to terminate.
I think about this a lot. I think about the age-related increase for both screen-able and undetectable problems, about whether it is selfish to have even tried for another child at my age, and about how unreasonably lucky I am to be in this position of possibility at all.
As a good friend reminded me not too long ago, it only takes one. One good egg. I can't do much now except hope this is that one good one, and wait (nauseously, nervously) till there's an answer from the lab.