Off the ledge
I have been reading and absorbing all of your comforting words. I am feeling much less anxious, thanks to your reassurances and information, and was even able to talk coherently to Dr. FYC yesterday evening and get a better idea of how optimistic he is. He said everything looked "as he would have expected" and he feels that #1 is pretty strong, and that #2 might, indeed, make it, too. I can not quite bring myself to think optimistic twin thoughts as it seems strangely greedy to want anything more than the one I had tentatively started to imagine before the ultrasound. But I'm trying to keep hopefulness from outweighing fear, and I think the balance has truly started to shift.
Thank you, kind people. I can't imagine trying to go through this without you.