I've had some time to think.
I've had some time to not think.
And the decision is made: we will try again. IVF #2 will proceed in July, ovaries willing. A new R.E.--a friend and former colleague of Dr. Katz's--will be taking over the practice in a few weeks; he comes from a very well-respected clinic and does not have any lawsuits pending. They will continue to accept my insurance, and my insurance is willing to pay for at least two more rounds.
There are raw places in my heart and mind that have not healed, will not heal, but the scabs have formed, and I no longer feel the sting with every deep breath. Beyond this second cycle, I do not know: I may have a resilient pool of hope stored up, or I may find that the reserves have run dry. Either way, we know there is an answer out there: we will not be childless and longing forever, though our little girl may start out half a world away.