Sunday, May 15, 2005

Not ready

Just got a call that my grandmother's in the ICU with heart and breathing problems. The words "no heroic measures" have been used.

She said a couple of weeks ago, before this latest ailment, that she's ready, that life isn't all that fulfilling when you're ninety and can't see to well, eat too well or walk too well. But she can still think and feel and imagine and love, and she has given so much love, genteel and quiet, to her often bitter and difficult family.

We're driving down tonight. Please let us make it in time. I'm just not ready to lose her, this sane and kind and intelligent and funny woman in her tiny, failing body.

35 Comments:

Blogger Bente said...

I'm very sorry. She sounds like a wonderful and wise woman.

7:11 PM  
Anonymous Danae said...

Prayers to you and your family.

7:11 PM  
Blogger Anna H. said...

Oh, no. Thinking of you, dear Bugs.

xxoo

7:14 PM  
Blogger Taylor said...

We will be praying for you and your Grandmother. God Bless.

7:47 PM  
Blogger Emma Jane said...

Thinking of your grandmother, and of you, and hoping for peace for both of you.

11:03 PM  
Blogger The Lioness said...

Oh my God Bugs, I'm so sorry. I too pray you will make it on time. Maybe in time knowing she is ready to go will help, even though it breaks your heart? I hope so, I really do. She does sound wonderful.

Much love to you.

5:45 AM  
Blogger Suz said...

As someone who really never knew either of my grandmothers, I love how you wrote about yours. I'm so sorry, Bugs.

5:52 AM  
Blogger Karen said...

I'm very sorry, she sounds like a wonderful woman.

6:08 AM  
Blogger Buttercup and JOHN-43 said...

hope you make it in time bug, your grand-mother sounds like a wonderful woman :)))))))

6:23 AM  
Anonymous deborah said...

I'm so sorry, Bugs. Thinking of you and your grandmother and wishing you both peace.

6:58 AM  
Anonymous Julie said...

Here and loving you.

7:11 AM  
Anonymous Jenn said...

I'll be thinking of you and your family.

7:30 AM  
Anonymous amanda said...

I'm so sorry. You, your grandmother, and the rest of your family will be in my thoughts.

8:23 AM  
Blogger Julie said...

I'm so so sorry. Regardless of the age, it's never easy. I will keep you, your grandmother and your family in my prayers.

8:35 AM  
Blogger Sandy said...

Thinking of you, your grandmother and your family Bugs.

9:31 AM  
Blogger Internal Spring said...

DB - I'm so sorry your grandmother is not well, I hope you made it in time to see her. It's never easy to say good bye, no matter age or health, it's such a loss.

Sending warm thoughts your way.

9:39 AM  
Anonymous thisgirl said...

I hope you make it in time Bugs. And I'm so sorry, she sounds like a wonderful person.

10:18 AM  
Blogger Pamplemousse said...

Oh Bugs, I am so sorry. I hope you get the chance to say your goodbyes.

11:10 AM  
Blogger Lindy said...

Oh, Bugs - I'm so sorry to hear your news. Your grandmother sounds like an amazing lady and I hope that you made it down in time to say goodbye. Wishing for peace for you both.

11:21 AM  
Blogger wessel said...

She will wait for you, Bug. I've seen it happen many times.

I'm so sorry that you are losing someone that you love so much and who is so dear to you.

12:55 PM  
Blogger Anne said...

Wow, my heart goes with you. My grandmother's 89 and has been making similar comments lately. One more great pain of infertility, the fact that the delayed arrival of children means those we love most in our lives may never get to meet.

12:55 PM  
Blogger Cass said...

Oh, Bugs. I am so so sorry. I'm thinking of you and sending lots of support your direction.

1:02 PM  
Blogger chris said...

I'm sorry. I hope you and your husband have a safe trip.

1:32 PM  
Blogger amyesq said...

Absolutely praying for you and for your family.

1:43 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm sorry Bugs. You're in my prayers.

Emily

2:32 PM  
Anonymous Day said...

I'm so sorry Bugs. Bless you and your family.

2:37 PM  
Blogger Ova Girl said...

very sorry to read this. hope you were able to say your goodbyes.

3:18 PM  
Blogger Susie said...

I'm thinking of you and your family.

susie
notahabit

3:30 AM  
Anonymous T said...

I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and your family.

9:53 AM  
Blogger kristenL said...

What everyone else already said, me too!
-kristen

1:00 PM  
Anonymous oliviadrab said...

A million and one prayers for you, your family and your grandmother. She sounds like a magnificent lady.

5:06 PM  
Blogger ThreeBees said...

Thinking of you and praying for your grandmother.

7:04 PM  
Blogger Cricket said...

I'm still thinking about you and your grandmother.

Your description of her is a lovely tribute.

12:24 PM  
Blogger Karen said...

Oh, Bugs. I'm thinking about you, sweetie.

3:42 PM  
Anonymous Soper said...

Glad to know she is doing better; I'll be keeping you in my thoughts...

7:56 PM  

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